sigh...... this sucks... im on a posponed relationship. Or in other words, i can't talk to jill unless i can manage to get over there, and set up once a month days where i can come over. this may sound easy to you guys, but considering how much crap i have to go through just to come over there, not to mention the fact it's 45-an hour drive over there... totally sucks, because i can't drive and every chance i get i am either busy, or she is doing something. Or my mom is busy so i can't.... i hate this. I have never really cried about anythingn so much, but right now, i feel really cold inside, and my eyes are watering up again. I HATE THIS!!!! THIS ISN"T ******** FAIR! damn you god..... always complicate my life, now you have to ******** up my relationship.... a*****e.
I guess i kinda patched things up with amanda, but that is nothing compared to this crap. I don't know what to do, i love Jill to death, but my mom has to complicate everything... either that or her mom complicates things... i just can't wait untill i can ;live with her in the same house... if i ever get that chance at this rate. I feel like there is more i could have done... *sigh* i guess i'll just leave it at that for now...
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