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People in my christian ethics class are so immature. Today we were talking about the Robert Latimer case. Just for some people's information, he killed his disabled daughter to end her suffering. Our teacher was explaining about his daughter's disability and some guys at the back of the class started laughing and saying "That's so weird!" Then they started looking though the textbook and it has some pictures of people with disabilities and they yelled to some others "Turn to page ###! God, what a retard!" Those guys are usually the mature ones in class and the girls are usually giggling, but this time it was the opposite. I can never stand it when people make fun of others because they're different. Our teacher heard them but he didn't say anything about it. He just went on like nothing was happening and kept reading the notes to us.
And what happened on my weekend was almost enough to make me to run away. My parents were both lecturing me about cleaning up around the house so I went on the computer to work on my homework and get away from them. I was on doing my homework for a few hours then I just got on MSN and my dad comes down and gets mad at me for being on to long, and since MSN was on, he thought I was on it all the time. Pretty much the same thing happened the next day with my mom. I didn't even know she was in the room until she spoke, and I found out that she had been there for a while and was reading a email I was typing out and sending to a friend. She wouldn't leave until I shut down the computer and I asked her to turn around so I could say goodbye to everyone and she said no because that means I'm trying to hide something. I said that I wanted privacy and that I don't like people reading my messages over my shoulder but she still wouldn't turn around, so I had to sign off without saying goodbye to everyone, which she didn't think was rude at all. Then she said that her adn dad could easily figure out my password then read all my files and look though all my pictures because they think I'm "up to something". Then when I went upstairs my dad said he could just block me from the computer if I didn't "smarten up". I really wish that I could run away and live with Johnny or Kai. I wouldn't care if people were lookig for me. I'd email all my friends to tell them I'm fine, but I wouldn't say where I was or they might tell someone else.
I had some weird dreams last night. The first one woke me up but the second one stopped when my alarm went off. They both included Johnny in them.
Dream #1: This dream was really short but it really startled me. I was outside taking the garbage out to the back like I usually do but when I went to close the gate, someone stopped it from closing. I said "Can I help you?" and he grabbed my collar and threw me to the ground. I couldn't see his eyes but he had weird tattoos that came from his neck to the side of his face. He had longer black hair that was messy and wet from the rain. He glares down at me and said "Where is he?" I asked who he was talking about and he yelled "You know who I'm talking about!" Suddenly he wasn't standing in front of me, he was behind me. He kicked me hard and I slammed into the fence. He then walked up to me and said "Where is Farman?" I was scared but I tried not to show it and I yelled "I don't know." He then said quietly "Then you're no use to me." And I don't remember what happened after that.
Dream #2: Me and my friends went to 7-11 to get a Slurpee and all my friends payed for theirs and went outside while I payed for mine. Suddenly, a man grabbed my arm and put a knife to my throat. He was wearing shades and a baseball cap so I couldn't see his at all. He told the cashier to put some money in a bag and hand it to me. As soon as we got outside, my friends saw me and they called my name. The guy told me to walk to a car and when we got to it he stabbed my side, grabbed the bag and drove away. My mind started to fade and then everything went black. When I woke up I was in the hospital and my parents and brother were sitting beside me. We talked a bit then the doctor came in and said I needed to rest. When everyone thought I was asleep I heard the doctor telling my parents that the knife hit a nerve and that I might not be able to walk again. I tried to pretend to sleep but I heard the door open and someone was talking to my parents. I opened my eyes and saw Johnny standing in the doorway, trying to talk my parents into letting him in. I smiled and told them to let him in and I asked if they could leave for a bit. We talked for what seemed like forever and I totally forgot about where I was and what happened until he asked about it. He stayed at the hospital with me and I talked the nurses into letting him stay in the room with me at night. It went on for days like this and it was awesome, even under the circumstances. I was being pushed out of the hospital by my parents and they agreed to let him stay in the spare room downstairs because he didn't have a hotel room. That's when my alarm went off and I woke up. I wish I would have been able to stay asleep and see what was going to happen.
 Kayla Marie Morningstar · Fri May 27, 2005 @ 12:05am · 6 Comments |
