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well.. I think my mind is a bit stuck in the past. Not really with Kev. I care about him but if he wants to totally shut me out of his life I can do the same to him. But with justin. Justin (Finding Emo) is an amazing guy dispite his drug use. And I love him to death whether it be as friends or a bit of something more. I have a boyfriend, Chris, as some of you know. And I wanted to try to stay friends with Justin. But the fact is, it hurts. It hurts seeing another girl love him. And it hurts that he loves her as well. I wanted to see him happy. But I guess I was hoping I'd be the one to make him happy. I'm not emo. I'm not angry. I'm not suicidal. These thoughts about him just keep replaying in my mind. Maybe school is stressing me. Finals are coming up. I'm pretty sure I failed my drivers test. Just too much to worry about. I still need to find a job. I need something to cheer me up. Maybe I'll go sleep or something. That'd be nice. Well I'm done. Comment if you wish even though I know little to no one even reads this anymore. Much love <33