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mood: a little emotional yet relieved - [a little] emo yet 3nodding
listening to: Chris Daughtry - "Over You" [video I like with the song]
[was] staring at: GaaNaru pictures
[now] looking at: some deviations at deviantART

Ah, it's been two weeks, and like I said, I went through exams. Some were easier than I expected, some were so-so, and others... Well, you could say I didn't like the others.

Not only have I been through exams, though. I've turned 14 last Tuesday, September 4, 2007. I have to say I enjoyed this year rather than my last birthday. I got gifts. Yes, and they were what I wanted.

One, I got an eraser from my soon-to-be-a-nine-year-old brother. I finished school and soon arrived at the place where I go through tutorials [they help]. There he was standing adorably, eraser at hand. Happy Birthday was said, and a hug was given. Adorable, is it not? It's only an eraser, but it's the thought that counts.

Next, at school before that happened, I got a hug from a friend. She said, "That's my gift to you already, OK?" I complained. We hug each other a lot. What kind of gift was that? She laughed, grinned even. Then she hugged me again. My reaction was late, but she kissed me on the cheek. We don't do that. Many girly girls do it at school [by the way, I study in an all-girls school if you didn't know], but my friends and I don't. I stared for a while, then screamed... "Oh my god!" At the end, she simply laughed at me.

I got a stuffed bear the next day. It was a blue checkered bow-tie on it. It's adorable. Oddly, red_moon313 [who gave it to me], or called as Red like how she wants it, said she was supposed to give it to someone else. She said she decided to give to me anyway. I accepted. It was nice.

From yet another friend, I received a drawing of Gaara and Naruto. Gaara was holding up a sign saying, "Hapy Birthday [my real name here, but I don't want to mention it]" Naruto looked like he was holding up ramen. My mistake. He was holding up a cake with two candles, one shaped as the number 1 while the other as 4. 14. From the same friend, I also got a CD with Naruto on it. As in, his adorable face is on the CD cover. I love it.

Ah! I must not forget. I got a tablet from my parents. Yes, it's thy tablet wherein I can now draw in the computer properly. Bwahaha. I wanted it last year, but not for my birthday. I just wanted it. My dad told me to wait. I did. Now, I got it. Yay.

I'm still awaiting some gifts. Omny said she'd give me Avril Lavigne's latest CD. I actually told asked her to get it for me. She didn't know what to give me. I suggested the CD. She decided to do so. I'm also expecting Naruto: Ninja Council 3 for Nintendo DS [yes, I have a DS] from happydogs [my cousin]. A few of my other friends said they'd get me something. I haven't received any other gift so far.

That was the going upward in my two-week rollercoaster. I did have some drops along the way, besides the exams. I'm not over it. I'm fine, really. Am I that pathetic when it comes to starting a conversation? If you're wondering, I guess I should tell you. Exactly last week, Friday, the Friday before exams, itachi [my Gaian used-to-be, if you know what I mean] asked if we could just stay as friends. I figured he'd ask, because I noticed it, too. We didn't talk so much to each other when we were both online. We never knew what to talk about, really.

I am not emo about it. Don't think about bugging me about it. I'm only a teensy bit sad. I'm a realist. I mean, I could be dreamy, but if it's reality, it's reality. I accept that I have problems. I'm trying to fix the fact I don't know how to start a good conversation and continue one. You don't have to say it's OK if you're a friend. I can't hide it. It's a fact. It's reality.

Another drop in my bloody rollercoaster, a.k.a. my life, was when I felt a teensy bit emotional again yesterday. I didn't know why, but I was in the morning to say the least. Oh, before that though, Red kept asking if I was alright and if I was fine about itachi and I going to a lower level. I was and am fine. I'm seriously fine.

But alas, the coaster has gone up. Exams are over, basically. My problems and worries are over. I mean, I was worried about noticing my lack of the ability to come up with something to talk about with itachi. I was sort of relieved when he asked me to just stay as his friend. That was only one of my worries. Sadly, I'm worried about the results of my exams. I'll make it, though. Hey, I've survived school before. I can always continue to do so.

As of now, I'm to relax. The exams were bothersome.

I'll see you guys, alright? Yeah. I'll see you. ^^