I sit in the back of the bus, and I'll let you in on a little secret. Many couples go behind the buses and kiss after school. I don't see anything wrong with that, unless of course they're six graders...but the bus drivers can't see anything because of the bulkyness of the bus. Well, there is this girl...and she is with this guy I can tell she really loves. And before they have to part she looks kind of sad, but he tell her they will see eacother soon, and then they hug, and they look into eacother's eyes...and kiss. And I can't help but smile. And at the same time I'm usually thinking about Matt...and if I'm going to get an unexpected text message from him. Even though we aren't supposed to have cell phone on the bus. And I almost cried today, because they didn't care about anybody else in the world but eacother. And it breaks my heart...because I know that Matt still doesn't love me. At least nobody sees me...I have the whole seat to myself. Sometimes I have to try real hard not to cry.
And I've been thinking lately, and Sarah is right. When he does say he loves me, it will mean a whole lot. A WHOLE LOT! Because some couples feel like they have to say it. But Matt wants it to mean something, and I thank him for that. But I just want to know when it is. I hope he will dance with me. And my brother is at the high school now, so he won't see me if we do dance. Omg...what am I going to wear. I'm no prep...but now I have a boyfriend. DO I wear a dress? Do I dress comfortably? Kacey! Sarah! Help me out!
Those are just a few choices I like.
I mean, I want to be perfect for him. If you know what I mean. I know I'm not the prettiest person in the world, but I would starve myself for him. Just so he would be content with me. Just so he would like love me. So just give me some advice one that. That's all I have to say right now. No...I'm not going to the parade. But if Matt invites me to the homecoming game, I'll go. razz
-Maggie-
