Rome & Greece & Pretty Faces.
I feel so messed up right now. But I feel like this a lot.
It's almost like depression but not quite.
I think it's just constant worry. It eats my stomach, and it hurts like a mother.
Really, it's on and off. I started getting it when I was about...I'd say eight years old.
Most of the things I worried about then I still worry about now, but some of them are different.
You might say that everyone worries and feels this way, but honestly, the way I feel CANNOT be normal.
It literally hurts my stomach. It gives me headachs. Sometimes I can't even sleep.
The worry is all surrounded by the same things...
I'm afraid I won't be the perfect student I expect myself to be.
I'm afraid my childhood is passing me by.
I'm afraid my life is passing me by.
I'm afraid I spend too much time not doing anything productive.
I'm afraid I don't spend enough time with my friends.
I'm afraid I'll never meet Anthony.
I'm afraid if I do meet him, he'll be in love with someone else.
Actually, I know he's in love with someone else.
I'm afraid of what my Dad will think of me, because what he thinks really matters to me.
I'm afraid I won't be skinny enough.
I'm afraid I'll never meet Panic! At The Disco.
I'm afraid I won't live as long as I want to.
I'm afraid no one will be there when I need someone the most.
I'm afraid I'm heading in the wrong direction.
Umm...yeah. I could go on. But I don't feel like it.
I don't like talking about this stuff, but sometimes I feel like I need to.
Some of those things might seem stupid to you, but they mean EVERYTHING to me.
Awake needs asleep,
and a pen needs a page.
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