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I don't know, i just don't know what to do. what to think. I need him, when i was with him everything just disappeared simply vanished. nothing mattered, everything was just gone, and i miss that, i miss him. I felt numb, and i love that nothing mattered with him. Plus he always knew what to say at the right time to make me feel special, i actually felt like i was SOMEONE. around him i didn't feel like i had to try to be who he wanted, he accepted me immediatly. I guess the reason i'm worried, is that the more he learns about me, he's going to find something in me he just doesn't agree with. I want to be with him again, i want to kiss him and everthing will just be perfect again. Here with out him in this hell hole called home, everthing is awfull. My dad doesn't know what he wants. I'm just in the way. My dad has forgotten about me, he doesn't know me anymore. He flips at the simplest questions. I don't know, i want to live with my mom. Everything is just confusing, and i'm just in the way around here.
HELP WHAT SHOULD I DO?!! is it as bad as i think?