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A couple of my friends are mad at each other again. I feel caught in the middle. On top of that, I've actually taken a very critical look at my RL friendships as they stand now. Things don't look at all good; the friendships that were so strong and enduring a short year ago seem to be crumbling into so much dust. I feel like I'm nothing more than a burden to all those around me, a sensation I haven't felt for so long I could barely recognize it when it hit me.

In short, Lyth's stranglehold on her mental stability is starting to slip. I'm falling slowly into the smoldering hole of depression I worked so hard to claw my way out of.

I'm considering suicide, something I haven't thought of for almost ten years. I fear I may be suffering a relapse into my old mental problem, and I know there's only one thing that can lead me back to the happy life I was living short hours ago.

Unfortunately, like I said, that one thing appears to be crumbling into dust around me.