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My heart started hurting today for no good reason. I was just filling out an order and all of a sudden, I started having pains. But it's not real pain. It's not like when I cut my finger, nor the pain of arthritis. It's not hurting like muscle soreness, or the sting of a bee. This feeling felt like it was more pain of the mind, the soul then that of the physical being.
It's interesting to say the least. My heart ached when I was doing something completely boring and uninteresting. Work doesn't give heart aches. Not unless there was something truly wrong with me. Yet it wasn't a very big pain. It was more of an annoyance. domokun
Do you know the feeling that you get when you think you are in love? When you feel this constant squeezing in your hearts when you think about someone that you have feelings for? The constant tingling of your body when you see them smile back at you? Well this was kind of like that, but it was also different. A harsher squeezing of my heart. The constant bitterness that it gave it. Could there be something wrong with me? Deep down inside I know that it's not physical. (Or I'm just saying that because I don't want to know if I do have a heart problem)
I'm a person who knows exactly what every feeling in my body means. I can overcome most things that my body gives me. But this weird feeling of the heart has made me very uncomfortable because I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know the reason and therefore can not reason with myself as to fix it. It's very sad and yet a mystery that I must solve. If it happens again, I might just have to go see a doctor. But I really don't want to do that. Hopefully... it never happens again and this was just out of the blue.

heart Nariem