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My grandfather's funeral ended on Thursday night. We buried him in the Evergreen Memorial Gardens. I didn't feel anything all week when they told me about his death but at the burial, I couldn't help but cry three tears for him. My heart clenched when I heard my grandmother crying, but inside I was scolding myself. Wondering why I was crying too. My relationship with my grandfather is not that great. I just haven't visited him for such a long time that we stopped communicating to each other.He was a great man though. He worked for his community and helped a lot of families. He always had a great smile and was kind to everyone. I never heard him yell once. But in the end, he had Alzheimer's and couldn't remember us anymore. He became weak and tired. He got really sick and was in pain, the doctors tried everything but no luck. The last night that I saw him alive, he was made comfortable and no longer in pain. We waited...
It wasn't until I looked him in the eye that I wondered about my own life. How I was leading it up till now. Living day by day doing nothing. Work, Sleep, Work Sleep. I couldn't hold any dreams nor did I have any accomplishments. I'm twenty one years old, with no dreams, no hopes, no wants to do well in the future.
My one great failure is money. I put too much thought into money. Because money gives me security. But when I looked into my grandfather's eyes as the light slowly fades away from them, I realized that all the money in the world wouldn't bring him back. Wouldn't bring any of my loved ones back.
Then all that I held dear was gone. Perhaps I'm being melodramatic, but I was never one to show emotions through these events. Sure I've experienced death before; I've been beside a person trying to commit suicide, or one who was just waiting for his death to come. I've seen corpses when they are not looking their finest. One by one everyone seems to have slipped away from me. My arms no longer reach out to them, I watch them silently pass me by.
Grandfather passed away peacefully. He had no regrets that I knew of. He lived his life with passion and fire. He was a man who influenced a lot in our group. ade a lot of friends in life.
For the next seven Sundays, we go to visit him and pray for his soul while he rests.
1920-2007
Goodbye Grandpa. Rest in Peace

heart Nariem (KY)