this is a conversation that jsut happened between me and my best friend for the reords and i cant remember
BF: I MUST
BF (8:17:06 PM): are you ok?
Me (8:16:52 PM): hey
Me (8:16:58 PM): thanks for talking
Me (8:17:07 PM): i want to talk online so my parents cant hear me
Me (8:17:13 PM): dont worry im okay
BF (8:17:43 PM): that is not cool
BF (8:17:53 PM): but whats up?
Me (8:18:05 PM): i cant belive it my father just got on my case hard- because i had to cancel my appointment with dr. bengara- they think iam going to marrow though
Me (8:18:17 PM): but i cant believe it
BF (8:18:44 PM): why did he get on your case??
BF (8:19:01 PM): ******** that
Me (8:19:04 PM): a part of me says he wants to help- but realisticly i think i dont know
BF (8:19:49 PM): well, you need to tell them about changing eventually anyway
Me (8:19:35 PM): yea they know im changing
Me (8:19:46 PM): i dont know why he got on me about canceling
BF (8:20:14 PM): what did he say
BF (8:20:16 PM): ?
Me (8:19:56 PM): what a ******** head i mean i dont think he understands
BF (8:20:26 PM): He is being a douchebag
BF (8:20:28 PM): I mean
Me (8:20:11 PM): well that i shouldnt keep canceling my appointment with him and resceduel
BF (8:20:35 PM): you misse it for work!
Me (8:20:21 PM): i know
BF (8:20:47 PM): it's not your fault
BF (8:20:51 PM): the job comes first
BF (8:21:00 PM): does your dad know that?
Me (8:20:47 PM): i just wish i understood things like you do because then i could stand my ground fermlly when i talk to my parensts
Me (8:20:49 PM): yes
BF (8:21:33 PM): you understand them, you know it's wrong that he did that
Me (8:21:27 PM): i really wish i could just lose it in front of them but-yea i understnad-but i cant get myself to do that
BF (8:21:57 PM): you just live with very difficult people who stresss you out and make you doubt yourself
Me (8:21:50 PM): i hate it because deep down inside i feel responsible for their reactions when LOGICALLY i know thats not the truth
BF (8:22:15 PM): so it's hard to remember the things like that
Me (8:21:55 PM): i agree
BF (8:22:41 PM): Just keep reminding yourself of what is going on and how it's right
BF (8:22:49 PM): You HAVE to do your job
BF (8:22:57 PM): It's priority
Me (8:22:37 PM): YEA imnot going to give it up
BF (8:23:10 PM): It is not your fault when they are Carzy
BF (8:23:13 PM): *crazy
BF (8:23:18 PM): it's them
Me (8:22:59 PM): i just feel i really want to mamke them understand how hard it is right now is there a way to do it? or is it impossible
BF (8:23:31 PM): You are not responsible
BF (8:23:53 PM): You ust think you are because they have been giving you guilt trips your whole life
BF (8:24:05 PM): have you ever tried giving them a guilt trip?
Me (8:23:49 PM): true very true i understand that now days
BF (8:24:12 PM): you have a lot of material
Me (8:23:51 PM): how?
Me (8:24:01 PM): yea i know i just forget it when it happens
Me (8:24:16 PM): my mind becomes an expert at forgetting things that i dont want to remembe
BF (8:26:10 PM): You are trying to do a difficult thing- change psychiatrists-while starting a new job and having classes, it's a lot on your plate, and instead of giving you support or guidance in it, they are putting more pressure on you and making it more difficult
Me (8:26:47 PM): hmm....i like how you put things in perspective thank you for going through with me through a heavy time now days
BF (8:28:39 PM): I'm goign to bills tonight, but if you want to sleep over you can
BF (8:29:09 PM): and You DO know all of the things I say, that's why you get so stressed out
BF (8:29:23 PM): just keep reminding yourself so you don't forget
Me (8:29:09 PM): gotcha
BF (8:29:39 PM): lurrrrrve
Me (8:29:23 PM): LOVE!
BF (8:29:46 PM): I am PISSED at your parents
Me (8:29:27 PM): *HUG
Me (8:29:29 PM): me too
BF (8:29:51 PM): haha
Me (8:29:41 PM): i hope you have fun with bills and AMPGARD if you do go
BF (8:30:03 PM): I can't wait till you move out
BF (8:30:11 PM): fuuuuuuuuuuuck amtgard
BF (8:30:16 PM): and you
Me (8:29:56 PM): YAY!
BF (8:30:26 PM): MOVE OUT
BF (8:30:31 PM): you will be 20!!
BF (8:30:35 PM): YOU CAN DO IT
BF (8:30:41 PM): *amanda flag*
Me (8:30:21 PM): YAY! I have toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Me (8:30:25 PM): *MUSIC
BF (8:30:49 PM): you dooooooo
Me (8:30:34 PM): I MUST
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