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I'm losing a battle.....to win the heart of a goddess
I'm losing a even losing battle that i can't win. What will I do...I will never win this battle to win the heart... her heart...What should I do, I hate changing for anyone, why can't people love me for being me...I can't take it anymore, sad crying should I leave here all together, or stop searching forever and just become a hermit, what is wrong with me, what is wrong with the world, am I that incompetent, am I that useless to anyone stressed scream WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO FIND SOMEONE THAT LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM AND WHO CAN CONTRADICT THE WAY I EVEN FEEL... scream stressed I feel sad...hurt...I...lost...I give up...I can't win her heart, so I will not even call her by her real name, I will keep her as a friend...why...am...I the...unlucky one...I want someone to love me and be there for me, I don't want to stoop low, I want to be there for someone...I want to see someone's smile...but that will NEVER happen sad crying maybe I should end life here...now I just don't care anymore...I'll cry myself to death...that's what I'll do...I'm not feeling happy, this was so a happy day, and after what happened...it came crashing down....I never had a real relationship...my love life...I never had one...AND THAT JUST DOWNRIGHT STINKS I HATE BEING LONELY IT STINKS seeking someone is useless and trying to find that right person will never happen for me....I just want to be held and loved by a beautiful girl, is that so hard to ask so I'll end it here crying myself to death....feeling sorry for my pitiful love life, I been shattered by so many....I had used by so many, teased by so many, but I keep fighting...but now...I just had enough.....
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