Okay. I have a friend and whatever he does affects me so muchh. :/
Like when he's sad my mood goes down, and when he's happy it usually cheers me up and I'm not sure if he knows that. Like the one thing that will make me feel better no matter what is seeing him smile. And like now he is being all emo because of stuff that's happened to him and I just can't help but worrying about him... I know he'll be okay, but still. He'll probably beat himself up so much and be depressed for a few days and if he's not online there's nothing I can do about it.. I doubt I'd be able to cheer him up anyway, but I could sure as hell try.
ike honestly though, I hate caring this much about someone I'll never meet.. Someone that I can't actually hug :/. And I really hate not knowing, like people I know over the internet could die, or get seriously hurt and I won't know about it.. And that's just kinda concerning... And sometimes I really hate how I can get so attached to people that I don't know.. Like I've never met you but I can tell you I love you and actually mean it? Even if it is just I love you like my family or somethig, it's just kinda wow... I really do care :/
Another thing I don't like is this guy know me better then anyone here's proof:
I need you so much closer.(ME) says:
What am I thinking about?
I need you so much closer.(eilidh) says:
ray
I need you so much closer.(Me) says:
Shampoo
I need you so much closer. (Eilidh)says:
xD oh wow
I need you so much closer.(me) says:
He would know that
(I forgot we had the same name)
Eilidh is my best friend, has been like my best friend for five years. And I've known this guy for like seven months.
But it's sad because I don't know if I know him at all really, and yet I still get myself into knots worrying about his wellbeing :/ and it's just kinda like... wow. It shouldn't be possible to care this much about someone I have never met/Probably will never meet. :/
I'm really not sure if any of my friends know this, but if I'm sad or anything and something's wrong with them I will always put them before myself. Like I just feel horrible when my friend's are sad and just don't want them to be... ever... :/
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-still sorry about what I said about your realationship in a past entry
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