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Well, 18 days left of school (inluding today). Woohoo!!! But condiitions are not exactly perfect, as a matter of fact, it seems to have come close to reaching the oposite of just that.
Its been about 3 days or so since I've really had a square meal, no breakfast, small, meager lunches, and dinners that are not filling or eveb big. I haven't snacked at all (besides Twizzler's yesterday) between now and the last weekend. My muscles are becoming weak, my skin is paling a bit, slow reactions, and I am feeling weary-lazy...
Also, something is wrong with me. My sleep patterns are irradic(sp?). Normally, I go to sleep around 2 or so and wake up at 5 something. But recently I have been going to sleep at around 11pm and waking up around 6:51am... And I can't seem to actualy wake up before hand. This has gone beyond this week though, its spanned into the last 2 weeks, probably longer... I am going to need a blood test for all of this, but my appointment to the doctor's office (originally April 29, 2005 at 7 in the morning) has been postponed to I don't know when.....
Now, I am the man of the house, ruler of the kingdom of Zierler. But this is not on a normal excurtion... My grandma (on my dad's side) has had a mild stroke.... and then a day later, a mild heart attack... My dad went off on Sunday to Wisconsin to go and spend time with her. He is also working from there as well while staying at a hotel (I think thats what he said). My mom, this morning at 5:30am has also left for Wisconsin at my dad' request yesterday..... these are sad times, I will say. I pray for their safety and recovery and a continued health for my grandmother and for all the rest of my family.
My only two solitudes from this are excessive work to try and keep my mind off of things, and my spending time with my girlfriend, who when I am with her, I feel everything will be just fine. When I am not with either of those two, my mind wanders, my doubts begin to surface, my worries increase, and my fear starts taking leaps and bounds for areas unknown...
Currently, I am not feeling as well as I normally would. I have ben breaking out into a cold sweat (just starting now) and I am itching quite a bit... but those are nothing I can not contend with. I hope that when I get home, I get good news from the north... My time runs short, I am getting kinda dizzy, and I don't think I can continue on with this anymore..... Well, to all who read this, adieu and goodnight.