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Interesting Topic
well, i found interesting topic in gaia today... it's about 'Suicide'
that makes me think... about my past... sad memory... and stupid things that i had done... stare
i think everyone must have a least one time in their life thinking of dieing... think of commit suicide... feel that i have no one in this world... or life is no meaning... no hope...
i also had those time... many time... but just one i really meant to do it... i feel like everyone in the world is my enemy... the one i love the most betrayed me... my heart was broken into pieces...
but later... i know that those things that i had done... was just a fool...
that was a big lesson in my life... a really big and tough lesson...
until i still thinking of dieing... and i afraid of it... but i'm not afraid of my own dead... what i really afraid of is someone i love will gone forever...
talking like this... i feel so selfish... i'm so bad... do i love myself? maybe i do... maybe not...
again and again i'm thinking of dieing... almost everyday i think like that... but i never say it out... most people will tell i'm so strong because i always smiling... that my only good point... i think...
hey! don't miss understand me... i won't commit suicide... just thinking that if i die that would be good... just that...
man... i'm so serious today... sweatdrop
well, i never said something like this before... but this is what i really think about myself rightnow... a bit odd right?? sorry for that...
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