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I thought I could fight lonleyness.
I thought I had come out ontop with our last battle.
And I thought I would never feel lonley again.
I was bullshitting myself.
I know now that am my own person, but I would still like someone to love and to hold. I can't rember the last time I got really excited over a girl, and the possability of a relationship. Coldly I have completley factored that out, as a self protection. At a certain point I stoped daydreaming about haveing a girlfriend and all of that. Reciently thinking I was stronger I started again. I think that may have been my mistake!
So of course I see couples on TV, read this and read that. And its just getting to me again. Tonight I feel lonley, and I dont' know if I'll come out of it again.
It seems to me that a romantic interest appearing in my life, is just that, a ******** daydream. Girls never have the guts to come up to me, and Im not meeting any new people. And when I do, and when I start to like them, I find out that they have a boyfriend. I hate ********, seriously, Im starting to not believe, love seems like a fairy tale to me. Or at least for me it is.
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 Super Panda454 · Sat Apr 23, 2005 @ 09:25pm · 4 Comments |
