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So Myckel told his parents and our moms talked and His mom and I talked as well. One of the things brought talking with both moms was marriage. My mom wants to wait until after he graduates college to get married, and the only reason I agree with her on that is that I've always wanted a big beautiful ceremony. I know that no matter how long we wait there proabbly won't be though. His mom wants us to get married sooner, for a couple of reasons, and I agree with her. I just want Myckel to at least propose to me. I know it won't be anything big and fancy, I know it'll be short and unromantic, I know it'll be nothing like in my dreams, I know that I'll never be able to tell him any of that, and I know that it probably doesn't even occur to him how badly I want it. It's not like I should be even thinking about that though, I mean I already have to do all the decisions when it comes to the baby. The only things he's had an opinion on was the name and the color of the nursery, which he won't even be here to see at least until March. I just feel so helpless in all of this and there's not a thing I can do about it.