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just as the title says, sorry that I haven't been on for almost three weeks, but I have been so busy that it isn't even funny. I have been missing school and traveling around the US and Canada fencing in competitions. needless to say, my teachers are really starting to hate me for traveling so much. my homework has just been piling up and the quarter has just ended. I think that my parents are going to kill me when they see my grades xp gonk .

the one good thing about constantly traveling is that I get to hang out with the people from my club, and I really like them. nothing makes friends like a competative sport where you attach each other with weapons confused . I guess. anyway, I really kind of like this one guy, but I'm just afraid that if I were to ask him out somewhere, our friendship would be hurt, and I really value him as a friend. oh well, maybe he will ask me out some day. it wouldn't be a total loss to just stay friends throught high school.

I'm one of those people who doesn't make friends that easily, but when I'm your friend, I'm really reliable and stuff. I would never just ignore you to be popular or so that I could steal your boyfriend or something. anyway, about two years ago I found my best friend. I was so happy(and still am), but now she has more friends than just me. I know this is selfish, but we used to be really close and it was just us and stuff, but with these other girls hanging around, I feel like I'm going to loose her and we are just going to drift farther away. one of these girls (the one that I'm most worried about) is really getting close to her, like we used to be, and I really don't like her much at all. she is really clingy (the thing that I dispise more than anyother trate in the world) and is really rude about some things. when I was reading Fake, my favorite yaoi series (yes, I read yaoi) she just wouldn't leave me alone about how it wan't a good romance novel because the two main characters are gay. (actually, I take it back, the worst trate in my mind is that of people who have to contradict things that they don't understand, and have to tell you that your beliefs are wrong just because you thing differently from them.) she was also doing it to my sister, who was being understanding about it and just trying to stop the conversation.
I think that when she says that next, I'm just going to tell her that I really don't like her and she should shut the ******** up aout it because I don't care what she thinks. maybe bitching her out would make her stop acting like such a spoiled b***h.
Yes, I am a mean person, and alot of people are scared of me and what I think about them. one of my things about friendship is that I don't have much respect for people who will just roll over if you want them to do something or if they want to act like they think just like you. all of my close friends don't just back down when I challange them, and that is how I like it. some people like to be surrounded by people who will do what they like, but I don't have any respect for people like that, and therefore, I don't think that they are worth my time. back to the point, I really don't like her, and the next time she says something like that, I'm going to b***h her out like she has never been bitched out before. I'm going to make her fear being in the same room as me twisted .