I can't believe it actually happened to me... love at first sight... the funny part though is that instead of feeling the need to be talking to her all the time i just feel the need to be in contact with her whenever possible, and not be rude to friends and abandon them completly to talk to her. Whenever she cries though, i don't know how to react... because my heart fills with sadness, and then i just freeze.. I don't know how to respond to that. *sigh* today we have STAR testing... and the bell just rang so i guess i'll finish this later....
back... I just finished the science portion and after i leave i have to go to 1rst period... Omg i can't believe how stupid the questions were, they literally had nothing to do with my class or anything that we learned. *sigh* I wish i was not limited at all when talking to Jillian and that i could talk to her as much as possible. I already know i have friends who are probabbly talking about us and saying something "like it isn't real", or "im desperate and that's why im dating her" but I don't care because I LOVE HER so all you people with your little problems with me dating someone and being happy for once. Go ******** OFF... anyways.. what gives people the whole thought that they know what's right for their friends.. hense why lately I have not said anything in the form of advice unless asked and even that is a rare occassion because i'll usually say it's best for them to solve their problem.
I love her too much to let anyone, and i mean anyone.. stand in my way. I am not afraid of her friends questions nomatter what they ask i'll only tell the truth. I want to go up there so badly but it's ******** hard to get my mom to take a 45 minute drive and it's the same for her. This whole thing is stupid i can't beliueve my mom would be like that. If she has ever been in love she would understand how much pain it is knowing that someone could take 45 minutes out of their day.. i mean it isn't even an hour... well unless you include the drive back but still! 45 minutes to drive me somewhere to see the one that I love more than anything. *sigh* i don't care abpout my friends problems anymore, because I can't get my mind off her or thinking about her, and so on.
I used to think i loved amanda, but this time it's different like everything about Jillian and I are preety much alike... our cats even i found out yesterday our pants. The way that we met was more than coiincidence how she just so happened to click the rp where i was on accident, and then after talking to me for awhile, after i left her mouse froze on pm, specifically pming me... i think that's a big enough sighn to anyone with doubts that this was waaaay more than just a crush or desperation. Not to mention when we first talked we had not really known each other but we both already had feelings and then a few days later we started dating. So, anybody who still doubts that we were meant to be together... all i have to say is go find something better to b***h about.
Later, J.T.
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