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Last Month: Secrets.
A topic I was reading just reminded me of this. Why do people in my own family keep so many secrets from me? All in . . . what, a month or less, I've learned that my father has had multiple affairs, heavily verbally abused my mother while she was pregnant with me, wanted to give me up for adoption, and that I have a half brother. Just last week, I was finally told that my dad's brother is gay. I already knew this, but no one had actually said it to me or around me. My mother and I were talking, and it just slipped out. She told me not to tell anyone that I knew, because he didn't want me to know. No, I don't mean that he was keeping it a secret from the family, or that they didn't want to discuss it or anything. I mean, he didn't want me, specifically, to know. Everyone else was told except me. Why? Same with all that other information I've recently learned. It makes me wonder what else they're hiding from me, and why they don't want to tell me. I thought it was amusing when Diana nervously asked me to be her girlfriend, and she thought I was going to get angry and never talk to her again or something. I thought I was giving off enough hints that if she asked, I'd be more than willing to agree. I have no idea what it is about me that makes people think I can't handle these things. Do I have some sort of fragile, conservative look about me? With my tattoo, dyed red hair, and bright green tennis shoes? stare It's because I'm short, isn't it. No, I don't really mean that. I would like to know the real reason, though. I'd also like to know what else people have been keeping from me.
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