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Oo... I'm really depressed.....and if you really know me, I get depressed alot. I know, that many people care for me.....and they don't want me to commit suicide, but has anyone ever wanted to feel the sharp pain, after cutting your skin? I've wanted to feel, that pain for a while now...I want, to feel the pain when the knife cuts me, as my blood flows through the wound, and my quick moment of freedom. I wan't to leave this life.... There's nothing to live for, nothing...and just a quick notice to you all....one day I might actually kill myself, but before that I will tell you all. 3nodding For those people that are worried for me, please stop worrying. One day, you'll understand the internal pain in feel. None of you know, the many tears I've cried....the many times I've cried for mercy...I can't stand living like this, my soul is tortured... gonk From your everloving, --April P.S. To all, that read this entry....you may post a comment...it all depends on you. 3nodding I hate these smileys...

Posted by: AprilSky Sun Apr 10, 2005 @ 05:55pm

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Commented on: Sun Apr 10, 2005 @ 08:08pm


	April....i know u said not to worry sis...but i still dohugs

Commented on: Sun Apr 10, 2005 @ 10:36pm


	don't die! i just met u! besides like mouse says we still worry. plus we like you just the way you are. and just where you are (IE that means in this world. don't go to the great beyond)

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Commented on: Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 03:56am


	gonk dont do that!!! if you do that..i will live with a guilty mind forever!! crying

Commented on: Thu Apr 14, 2005 @ 09:10pm


	April I don't live near you, but even if your soul is tortured. You don't have to kill yourself to be free of the pain. Killing yourself well only take you to a more torturis place. Hell is not a place I want any soul to go to. So please as a person that does care, don't kill yourself.

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Commented on: Wed Apr 27, 2005 @ 12:17am


	Hey luv, listen...i know EXACTLY what you are going thru. If you feel that death is your only option then so be it. But always know that your friends on Gaia, who barely know you think you are special. And they talk to you each day because they enjoy your presence. once upon a time when i was going thru my manacially depressed stage, i tried to kill my self by OD-ing on some prescription drugs-i was alone....32 hours later when i awoke from a comatose state, i was called by one of my best friends who wanted to know if i was alright, she had been trying desperatly to contact me-she was standing out side my window banging on the glass. If she wasnt there i would have lapsed into a permanent coma and died. Its s**t like that that make you stay alive. We care for you. Dont die please.

Commented on: Fri Apr 29, 2005 @ 12:06am


	sad don't do it april, i know you hurt just dont kill yourself

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