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I'm not as funny as her she seems great to everyone. But when I'm around everyone is silent but I just try to fit in. I know what they think of me for saying what I think. No one would understand the pain I'm in. Truly I've been swallowed up and can't escape. I'm not as pretty or as perfect as you are, I can't run in a race or jump over a bar. I'm not popular and I think I'm a freak, I know they think that too. I can't talk to anyone cause I know it's in my head, but sometimes I think people would rather have me dead. The only people who like me are people who don't know who I truly am. I can't say that I'm in torment or that I hate myself and the world because no one would understands. I have no one to talk to, my parents would get scared my friends would laugh. so... what to do... No one will leave me alone, I just want to be seperate from the world and from everyone. But I can't for being alone when I'm crying makes me scared like no one cares. I want to be loved but I want space to. I just want someone to listen to what I say and take it seriously. Maybe someday I'll find that person and they can help me. But for now I'm lost in this black void of posers, populars, freaks, and geeks. I want out.