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Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, 'cause I'm being honest...

I've been in denial for a while, I guess.

When I tell you that's you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,
about being honest with yourself

Getting over things is way easier said than done.

Cause things will never be the same.

It's funny how it's your face I saw first in that crowd.
That phone call in which she was yelling your name...
I just had to laugh to myself.
I think I've seen you the last two weekends.
But never any exchanged words, just glances.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

I just love the stares.
You have really nice eyes... and hair.
Can't say the same for your habits though.

Don't waste time getting to the point, 'cause I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
about being honest with yourself

I think it's the matter of a case of being way too shy.
On both sides.

Cause things will never be the same.

"But at least you got to see him and he acknowledged somewhat you were there even if you didn't speak"
That's the way it always is.
Back in the crowded hallways.
Then more in the crowded scene.
And now in a crowded mall.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Call it enjoyable when we just happen to be in the same place at the same time within each other's view.
Or, you know, almost walking into each other.
Sidestepping and all.
I hate doing that.

Cause I can't stop it now
It's so amazing how
I know I can't, I could never walk away

But in the end, they say "it's better this way."
But is it?
I mean... the silence can't be unbroken forever, can it?
It might just be.

How can we resolve this now
You let me go, and wonder how
This can never be the same
Can never be the same

"When you get caught looking at him, remember he was looking back."
Or he was pretending not to notice.
But it's happened so much, I can tell when you're forcing yourself not to acknowledge.
Or forcing yourself to pretend you didn't notice.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging-

I know that this is def not the last time that it'll happen.
Sad part, I'm almost looking forward to the next time.

Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I can't, I could never walk away.

I can practically name all the times of [almost] interaction.
That time on the bus when your school crammed in with my school, and I was talkin' crap about your school's uniform.
The COOPs, we were in the same room, and you sneezed on my friend.
The night of the COOPs, at the scene.
The Walk-A-Thon, where I was "introduced" to you but ran away because of s**t the guy who was like "This is..." said.
That academic orientation or whatever that was.
Orientation itself, where "noticed" was obvious because I'm obnoxious.
Then all the times in school -- picture day, outside the pizza shop day, orange and saving-lives day, my iPod playlist day, stalker-phone day, "I just think people are hot" day...
But you got kicked out.
It didn't stop there like I hoped it would though.
There was the end of the library show scene.
Then your old band's show at the scene that night.
And now, the mall last night.
I don't know if it's a sign or karma.
I'm going for both.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, 'cause I'm being honest.

-Honestly by Cartel

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