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Ok... Well the other day I was asked out by a boy that I'm not interested in going out with. Being me, instead of saying no and kicking him to the curve, I offered to just be friends with him. Now we talk during lunch and wave in the hall but I have this constant nagging feeling inside me. A real friendship, to me, can't be asked. You can't ask someone to be your best friend, It has to come naturally. I have some really good friends and never once did I ask them to stand up for me or laugh at the stupid things I do. I didn't ask them to understand who I am, what I'm about and what my limits are. It all comes naturally. I understand my friends limits and feelings and I know what they feel comfortable with talking about. I do my best to respect there opinions and I hope they understand mine. I can't ask someone to start a conversation about the saying "Holy cow" and have it end on the topics of infinity, god, religion and the beginning of time. It comes naturally. I can't tell them that I will be there for them and that I am open to discuss anything with them and that I will always be there for any of there problems. It's something they must feel comfortable with and I am so thankful that i have gotten to a point with most of my friends, that they are willing to share these things with me. I can't ask that of someone... I can't...