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i hate this. I'm home alone again. Although even if Chloe was here it's practically the same as being alone. I can only post things like this on here, because on myspace Myckel might see it or someone we know might say something. I'm so tired of waiting for him to tell them. Sometimes I just want to go over there in whatever shirt makes me look the most pregnant and just tell them, but I know that would probably be the worst thing possible. I just want to be able to see him so badly. I know that his mom would at least understand, and that's why I hope that even if he didn't get to live here she'd at least let us spend more time together. I get so mad when I'm alone like this, but everytime I see him all the anger dissapears and leaves only a gentle sadness that tugs at my heart. So all I ever end up saying to him is that I miss him and feel lonely. He was supposed to tell them this week, he didn't so all I said to him was "next week?" I'm trying so hard not to be pushy but everynight I go to sleep alone and I feel like I'm going to die. Every time I watch a romance or wake up from a dream or even say goodbye at the end of school I always feel so alone. No matter who else is there.