I've not been myself lately. But, last weekend I was just seriously praying that I would get hit by a car or have the strength to take some pills. This is the first time ever in my life that I honestly didn't/don't want to be here
.....The funny part is, I actually did get hit by a car today. I wasn't seriously injured, but a little bruised and shocked really. I didn't cry, I didn't scream, I wasn't hysterical in anyway...I just smoked a cig. and look at everything around me
