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Choir is going badly for me. I cannot sing my part by myself for a song that no one knows very well. And it's really hard for me to sing my part w/o Kaitlyn singing hers, b/c they're really close. So, naturally, I was having issues with it. And Castllo wanted me to sing louder, when I barely know my part crying This is why I quit band: I learn some things slowly, so I'm not always sue, so I'm quiet. Meh...
Beth mad eup a song at lunch, forgot it by the end of the next period, then made up a new one with similar words @ Liturgical Music. ^_^ I love it when she sings. Heh, that's how she convinced me to play my pretty piece for her. Sooooooooooo evil evil But...not so. *sighs* This is getting me confuzzled. I ought to just stick to my original plan, but it's hard. I am better about some things, though. Which is good ^^
My locker was stuck this morning gonk But victory came at locker break. I was sooooo happy! Mmm...the movie was good. I can't really pay attention to it for very long, but I do like it. I like when they play the piano. It's wonderful ^_^ But when I wasn't paying attention to the movie (tsk tsk, I know), I was working on a story. I'm still not finished 'cause it's too long crying But it's okay. Charla returns yet again ^_^ And her friends Ann and Leo are along for the ride. But it doesn't fit, really, with my other stories...well...actually...if you think about it, I'd need to write something about Leo, and it fits! Heh, sometimes writing these things out helps me come up with ideas. heart
So, after lunch, I was going up tha stairs, and I randomly started singing the chorus of "Solitude" which goes something like this:
"Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true"
Except I tend to mix the words for the last line with the other chorus, which goes something like "I can't stay away from you." I really should not let myself sing these songs at school because, invariably, one of the people I associate with a particular song shows up xp Right when I got to "forever me and forever you" Annoying sweatdrop
Color guard wasn't horrible! I only hit myself twice, and it was in the same spot on my leg, during the same drop spin xd And it didn't really hurt that much. I've had much worse bangs in that area...ah, the memories of 8th grade hockey xd Needless to say, a little metal pole tapping my leg didn't really cause that much pain ^_^
WAAAAAAAAH, In a year and 3 months, I won't have to think about what I'm stuck with right now. But until then, I have GOT to keep to my decision: my head rules, not my heart. I can't follow my what my heart wants blindly, and that's what will happen if I don't just stick to the head. It's not how I want to live, but for now, it's the only safe thing. Because the 3 ways I could go all end with disaster and too much hurting.
"How many times have I done this to myself?"
~nepie
 nepie · Mon May 07, 2007 @ 11:25pm · 1 Comments |
