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I can't get a job nor can I drive. Why? Because I'm 15. I can't get my permit till the end of the month and I can't work for money until at least winter break. I hate feeling useless, but lately that's all I feel. No one wants a stupid little girl to work for them. I had to turn down Shakespeare because I couldn't commute and they won't offer housing like last year. I can't work anywhere else, because most are too far. I was thinking of working for gaia's intern program until I went to map quest and saw that they're around great mall. Even if I took a bus, that would take me almost an hour to get there with all the stops. If I could drive, it be only about half an hour, but I'm not that damn lucky. Nope, I feel cursed. This summer won't be a happy one.
Maybe because I see this as a start of my life that I'm trying so hard to find work for a least a month or two. Maybe this is just paranoia or something. If I can't get work now, whose to say if I'm capable of finding a job after college, it'll probably take me a year or two just to find a side job. I want to work, to know I'm capable of it. Youth is just tying me down. It's because of my age that I can't work, can't drive and can't LIVE!
Perhaps my need to be involved with humanity is what's driving me up this crazy wall graffetied with the words, "FIND A JOB!" or maybe it's because I don't want to sit on my a** all day doing nothing. I don't know what it is, all I know is that I really want something to do this summer.
 midnight-mystic-dragon · Mon May 07, 2007 @ 06:15am · 1 Comments |
