• im a different kind of girl most say i live in my own world
    in the dark some say i have no heart
    they say this was all caused from my past i shall tell you the story of my heart ache young lass
    i was alone on my own while my mom was at the bar her head in the clouds and raw was her heart
    a passion for drugs and a passion for sex
    somtimes shed forget me when i went to bed
    only 2 at the time not understanding any of these lines
    but knowing that my mothers pain was showing
    she fought the battle to stay pure and with my stepdad i was sure
    if she stayed anylonger my mother would never get stronger
    with all fighting and screaming and a physical beating
    people knew it was for me to leave and say bye
    my mom was with my grandma at the time
    the time when i was leaving and when i had been forced to leave my old life behind
    i was confused and upset and they said i would neer forget
    but why must i leave i was never upset
    at palinscy was just one of my darkest hours oh how i felt like a little coward
    a place like a puppy pound come and pick and choose having no imformation and nothing to do with you
    oh the lady seemed grand but when we got to her land did her true being come out
    selfcentered and rudeness that made me doubt that id ever go free or ever get out
    she decided i wasnt good enough for he EXPENSIVE big house so again did i move to a different spouse
    this one in the ghetto wich was prty cool but what scared me was bein the only white girl at school
    all wnt well before a nother foster came such an evil child with such a beutifull name
    she ruind my life she tortured rights it got to the point where i never could sleep at night
    i took all the blame wich brought a beating on my body because she thought of it as a game
    trying to be sly she always had a lie drawing and killing and trashing the house
    then on my record all this crap i tried to renounce
    but then came a lady who took me in with open arms
    she loved me before i even came home
    with a smile on her face showed no signs of my of my disgrace
    all went well tell the relation between me and my birth mom fell
    my adoption mom was there even through hell i am trying to get better
    but here i am still
    stuck on this side walk feeling awfull and alone
    this was my heart ache and problems all put togther in a bottle remeber them well they will help u get through tomorrow