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Well, I broke down last night. Call it jelousy or what ever you want, I don't care. My sister says everyone is more her friend. . . . .like I have no frined's, like i'm in her shadow. The only "friends" I have that she doesn't know is online, and jesa, but I can't see her, she lives in another city. Now she's pissing me off. . . . .My sister keep's saying my Hannah and my Tonya, and I would say "No there mine!" just playing around. Then she will say :No there more my friends then yours." Then I will say "No i'm closer to hannah or tonya." And she will say "No your not." It really bothers me. I don't know why. I just feel really alone. And she was planing this party where having for a friend of mine for her 16th birthday part and I wanted to be a part of the planing and sh goes "No she's not really your friend" When I call her mom and we talk. No where not all buddy buddy and alway's going everywhere together but where still friend'a. I'm closser to her then some people. Gawd. It pisses me off just thinking about it. This isn't the only reson why I broke down. Feeling's building up inside of me tearing me from the inside out. Well now it's monday. Three day's later. Now I have another problem Hannah is hurting because of

Well, Liam kept telling me to have better grammer on the computer so I edited my other entry and will not screw this one up.(hopfully sweatdrop )
Well i'm fight with my sister, well actualy where not talking and it's over something stupid. I realy don't care anymore. I'm tired of always letting her get her way. Well i'm 14 now. I got a Slipknot cd and a Korn cd. (other things too but i'm to lazy to list them and it's not like you care or anything) I'm actualy listening to Slipknot now. I'm so boed and I can't wait for the bell to ring. I realy want to go to studio and draw. Where doing some chalk pastel abstract picture. I put in what is suposed to look like Hiei's hair in it though. But only Yu Yu Hakusho fan's can tell. I was going to put in duzzel as a kitten thing. I forgot what they are called. Jesa will tell me. I can't wait till this weekend or rather tomarow. I'm going to a movie night and Liam's going to be there. I haven't seen him in a while. Saturday i'm going to his house. Katlyn will be there to. She's cool. I don't remember what i'm doing sunday, but I know i'm doing somthing. lol twisted Wright here soon!