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well, f that.
Addiction.
I'm an addiction. But they always said life was a drag. I hate myself. I'm pushed to people to listen to stories of stress, frustration and hate - but never love. I hear of lust, but never love. You couldn't - no you would not believe the stories I've heard. I've been in so many places and yet I'm always the same. I never grow, never learn. The people who befriend me end up in harm's way and what's worse is the people who love them hurt too. I don't live long, and every breathe taken I'm closer to ashes. As my life gets shorter, my words are taken away. After that you can't even recognize me unless you've been a friend for far too long.

All this wrong with me, and if you ask certain people I'm love - or money. This really depends on how you ask. I'm friend with all sorts of people through other friends, gained at hard times, or just from a flaw. The saddest thing about my life is not what I am, how I am - but who I am. Because being a cigarette is one hell of a guilt trip. I even killed the Marlboro man.


Down-hearted (writing exercise)
I look into your eyes and search for hope and aspirations. The wings that gracefully brought you into my life are gone and all that remains are the shoulder blades that dig into my back when you won't face me. I know that soon I will come to a realization that I have failed, and it will sink slowly into my soul. It is not that I have given up, for I always keep hope. However, by the blank stares and little words I never get, I know your faith is obsolete. I wish I could strike the beast that sucks your spirit. I wish that I could pretend I was not that monster. The vigor you influenced my life with at the beginning knocked me on my feet. I regret the day I became the degenerate that left you so down-hearted.


writing from my word challanges.


Persilla Lovehart
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Persilla Lovehart
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