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-_- How much it pisses me off to admit it, but i'm not a angry or hateful person.
I can't be pissed at someone that throws a thing of food at me, and I can't get pissed when someone slaps/smacks me across the face when i'm tryin to mind my own business.
(Though it was okay since it was a friend and it wasn't a real slap.)
No matter how much I try to be angry, or even hate someone, in my heart I can't.
I got the look down of being angry or having murderous intent..
BUT THEY BLOODY SEE I'M NOT A ANGRY PERSON!
What am I gonna do when someone tries to fight me? Stay calm while I get my a** beat, back off (run away), talk my way out of it, or do nothing and just sit there and take it.
The only time when I do fight is when i'm 'insane,' but that s**t doesn't even work either. I still have full knowledge of what i'm doing. I can feel it, my arms get weak each time I throw a punch like i'm holding back when I don't want to.
I think when I go in a insane tantrum, I just force myself to be angry enough to fight. But I know that I am not, so it doesn't work and I can't do s**t..
It just.. Pisses me off I can't be angry, even at myself.