I go back to school in two days, but I don't want to. I want to stay at home where I can have peace and quiet to myself whenever I want. When I'm at school, I don't have that quietness when I feel horrible, or when i just want to be alone. sad I don't know why I feel so depressed right now. I want to die. Maybe if I do...everybody will be happy. Maybe if I do, everybody can have their perfect lives just how they want them. When I give it all I've got and I'm exhausted...they don't give back. They don't even acknowledge me at all. They pat me on the head and walk away, never to be seen again. I hate myself! Why can't I just go somewhere and be invisible so that no one will hurt me and I won't hurt anyone else. Why can't I just be the perfect daughter like my mother needs me to be? Why won't GOD just get rid of me. Strip me of my soul and throw me into the abbys. I feel like my life is being bled dry and no one cares enough to stop it. To stop hurting me. I'm hurting myself more than they are, but how do I stop?
Please just kill me Stop playing games with my soul!!
You've hurt me enough Please let me go!!
No matter what I do, No matter how I try
You still fell the need To make me cry.
Do you enjoy my heartache? Want to steal my soul?
Well go ahead and take it I don't care where it goes!!
I wish I'd never met you, you make me feel so guilty!!
It's like my heart is full But my souls stays empty.
So please just kill me, Stop playing games with my soul
You hurt me enough, But will you ever let me go?
Jay Ree Community Member 
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