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As i sit by my boy, i feel gref in my soul, i feel like screamin out loud so that everybody hears me. I feel like cryin in front of him but dont know y.
since i have found him, i have felt happy, calm, felt lvd, just sittin on the chair that i sit at him and just chat him with him on msn.
As i dream about him, i feel greatful that i have met him but, sad that i didnt meet him earlier.
As i just try 2 act normal, i had felt like cryin 2day at skool when i was with ma friend but, tried 2 hide it away from my boy from seein my cryin.
As i just wonder around on CampWalker, i day dream, thinkin bein with him, hand n hand, feelin the brezzz comin 2 me with happness.
I play the same songs over and over all night, until i fall asleep and 4get 2 turn off the boombox and when i wake up, i remeber 2 turn it off.
As i have been in this world, i have felt good bein with ppl, metin new ppl and seein ma friends, hangin out with them but, filld with sadness cause....one of my friends shall be moven......i would ry over and over.....as nice as hshe has been 2 me, sayin nice stuff 2 me.
when i feel sad, i try not 2 show it, i try not 2 cry also..as i did 2day, while i was at skool, i was tryin 2 not show the saddness in my eyes that wanted 2 me 2 cry. Tryin 2 not show my saddness, i tell my friend jess about it, just says dont cry as 4 others, my other friend asks if im ok.
Tryin not 2 thow the saddness at my friend across from me, with the boy standin right nex 2 her, i tell her im ok....
As parents come 2 pick us up crom the boom thret we had had at skool, i wish 4 him 2 stay with him but, his mom has come 2 pick him up....saddly i wish im my mind, he could stay with me, or take me with him with haddy and sarah.
As he walks off, i watch him, until i cannot c him anylonger.....
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 fank · Fri Mar 25, 2005 @ 12:25pm · 0 Comments |
