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Man first my kitten Burrito died or was put to sleep, now my hamster Dusty just died 03/31/07 he was the coolest hamster ever...I miss him so much, and now my sister just became engaged and all my parents all ever talk about is my brother and sister its like they dont even love me they just pretend that so they make me not feel bad. Everytime my relatives call they ask about me and my parents are like yeah Halie's fine and so then my relatives ask about my brother and sister and parents talk forever about them...Geesh then on a road trip of just me and my dad, we had to make a pit stop and he was like I dont feel comfy leaving you here, and since my sister has been engagded and that all my parents ever talk about it made me relize why do you care? Do you say that so it make you look like a big hero and to make it seem like you actually care?
I think I am going through mixed emotions...My mom calls me her "bonus suprise" and that makes my heart break it seems like I was never supposed to be...and since my sister was the first born she got everything she ever wanted and I get diddly squat....My dad found a pic of my sister and my brother together when they were little and he was like this is one of my fav pics of all time and he was like rubbing it in my face....

Why am I going such a tough time????
MAN I HATE THIS YEAR
*cries so much I make a river of tears*