I Wrote this ALong Time Ago Like It Was Last Year I Think On a september? Cant
Remember But This Was How I Felt when My Heart Was Broken And I Missed
Someone Dearly, I Cant Really Remember Writting This But The Feeling I Do
Remember So Much Im just amazed I Was able To Write It
Feeling very weak and depress, I show not the feelings , for I do not want others to
worry for me and the way I feel, my body feeling weak ,not eating much at all nor
sleeping either, just thinking of someone and wondering what’s going on with him,
not in my dreams for I have not dreamed at all, the only thing that keeps me
going is hoping he can be on and type some words for me and only me, to at least
be able to read and feel a little closer to him is what I need , to make me my
aching heart rest, my eyes water for the sweet words to appear from him to wait
for him to speak my ears tremble for a sound that would make my body strong
once again to make my face turn red and to hear that laughter of mine again , to
be able to do the things I did , all is gone don’t know if it would come back, all I
know its my fault I was the one who made it go away for I was the one that’s
weak and made things worse, my body aches from top to bottom, I move a little
and a pain stabs me on the bottom of my breast, I hold still closing hard my eye
lids I press hard on the bottom of my breast, I look and see its near my heart is I
feel a beat slow and painfully I close my eyes tight for the pain is unbearable , for
a sec I think for a moment and a flash in my mind its him, I look with a blank face
as my arm slowly falls down to my stomach, I think of him and wonder, why does
it hurt so much still thinking of him, my eyes start to water I hold it in for I look
around , I don’t want attention I don’t want friends worrying for the sake of me, so
I stand straight hold my breath, no tears appear I force them in, I walk straight
and look a head with a smile a say hi to my friends.
