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	Toraojou's Journal A day in the life of... me!
	Toraojou's Journal A day in the life of... me!

	Depressed
	Depressed


Dear Journal, I'm depressed again over my sister... I don't know what to do! I've tried forgetting about it and just being happy for her... but I can't! I'm so angry and bitter it's unreal! I don't even feel like living another day... I just don't see how everyone can be so happy for her, you know? Since she was fourteen she has put our family through hell: drinking, smoking, drugs, sex, wicca! Everything! It's just not fair that someone like that can get pregnant and everyone be happy for her. I have never seen my mom so happy before, and it hurts. It hurts to no end! I've tried my whole life to live up to her expectations and I just feel like she doesn't appreciate me. I've never done anything bad, I graduated high school and college, and I have a great job! My sister, on the other hand, has nothing! She graduated high school, sure, but she's not married, doesn't even know for sure who the baby's father is, is living with our mother, has no job, and is driving MY CAR while I make the payments on it! It hurts so much to know everyone is so happy for her... I've tried so hard... I have nothing and no one to live for! I wake up each morning dreading to start a new day! I don't want to wake up. I can't stand myself! I get sick to my stomach everytime I think about this stuff! I just want to run away and never some back! I never want to talk to anyone in my family again! I'm tired of trying to prove myself! Tora Yukino · Tue Mar 20, 2007 @ 04:23pm · 5 Comments


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	huggles Well, this is hard. I know it's hard for you to see your Mother so happy about your sister being pregnat, but you have other redemming qualities and if you Mother cant see that, she needs help!? You are one of the nicest, sweetest, more careing people ive ever met (even though ive never met you in real life)! If i was with you right now, I'd give you a HUGE hug and take you out to see a movie!! You DO have a reason to live! People care about you! I know that if you ran away and never came back to Gaia or anything, I'd be so depressed and probably cry alot! you seriously are a GREAT friends of mine! huggles again Offline Arrabella Mae · Community Member · Tue Mar 20, 2007 @ 05:29pm


	hugs Tora-chan. I love you very, very dearly and would never recover if anything happened to you. Your family doesn't deserve it; it's as simple as that. They don't know what redeeming qualities and good people are. You are an amazing person Tora. Don't let their twisted morals get to you. There are people who love you for the amazing person you are. I've tried all my life to live to my dad's expectations, but I understand it won't work. I'm not Lizzie, and I'll never be good enough to him because of that. And she's driving your car? Put a stop to that NOW. If you're making payments, it's your car. Period. If she wants to drive it, she has to make the payments and pay the insurance. She has to take responsibility since no one else is making her. hug very tightly Offline Kitsune_Fox · Community Member · Tue Mar 20, 2007 @ 10:05pm


	C> I cry C> Thanks so much you guys! This really means a lot. sad C> because of her C> Offline Tora Yukino · Community Member · Tue Mar 20, 2007 @ 10:09pm


	I'm so sorry that happen. Well there is nothing really I can do, or say to help but if it was me I just stay away from every one that was happy for her. And maybe will not come back till after the kid is born. I kind of know what you are going though, but it's not like that with me. My sisters get eveything, and I'm left alone, I work for money, they go around asking for it. they get more of everything, when I ask for nothing. And all my friends like my younger sister better then me. some times I wish she was dead, but then I think what would my so called friends say, they might just say every day "I miss her" over and over, over again, and it would drive me crazy!!! So I'm trying to get over the fact that everyone likes them more then me. but it still hurt. I'm inorder (sp) by some of my friends already, but when she is not around they go to me. So whatever. And I'm sorry that still happen to you, I didn't mean to talk about myself, sorry. Sorry again. >_< Offline Peanut_Butter152 · Community Member · Tue Mar 20, 2007 @ 10:43pm


	C> I cry C> Thank you, Peanut Butter. sad huggs C> because of her C> Offline Tora Yukino · Community Member · Wed Mar 21, 2007 @ 03:24am

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