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As I stare down the dark abyss i call life I start to wonder why im here. I wonder wonder why god put me on his green Earth if he was gonna make me so ******** up. I understand nobody's perfect but...I get the feeling...that...I am...cursed to live a life of unhappiness. Im never truely happy. I always feel lonely and feel like Im missing something special in my life but cant figure out what. Why do I feel this way? Why am I doomed to obscurity? Why do I always feel like Im outside lookin in on my life when I should be inside looking out. I try to understand why I feel this way. But the harder I try to get out of it the deeper the hole Im in gets. And it dont help when my friends make me depressed, because then the hole gets deeper. IM SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY! I FEEL LIKE THIS EVER NIGHT AND DAY. THE THOUGHTS, THE DREAMS, ITS MORE THAN A REGULAR PERSON CAN TAKE! IVE TRIED TO END MY LIFE! IVE TRIED TO MAKE OT RIGHT! I HIDE THE SCARS FROM THE KNIFE. BUT NONE OF IT WORKS! I scream and I cry but no one's there to make it right. I wanna express how I feel to someone who is real!
But there aint no one here for me! Ive just gotta face the fact that Im alone. And I'll always be alone.