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am i stupid?
ehh, maybe...maybe i just want to be
i mean think back on those days when ya didn't have to worry about anything
the days where you can spend all day playing out in the dirt and sun
you didn't have to worry about a job, school. hell you loved school back then,
we all had cooties and were afraid of getting them from the opposite gender
those were the good ol days
Back when i was still oblivious to the realities of life
sucks when you find out that the world is based on a single truth and there is little to no room for indviduality when the whole world expects you and almost requires you to be a certain way to succeed in life
wasn't it more fun when you could go to class and fingerpaint a picture thats nothing but blots of paint smeared on paper yet somehow your teacher will say that it looks great, then taking it home and having your parents say it was the most beautiful thing ever. Instead, now if you draw a beautiful drawing in different art formats and with pastels and inques only to turn it in and be told its a piece of s**t and deserves no more than a D...
I remember that if you were to wear a yellow shirt with purple shorts and green socks, it was ok
now, i mean i would never ever wear that
but nowadays you can't wear a simple black pair of pants and a white shirt without being judged by someone
i know people say they don't care about their appearance, but there's a smidge somewhere in them that does care
see we got at leas two types of people who "don't care" what others think
you got those who will beat you senseless if you say they care, they will attack you saying they couldn't give a rats a** about what people thought...if they really didn't tho, why would they keep saying they didn't and why would they get so mad when people say they do
then the other type is the type who will dress up so bad to where they will make you question their sanity
it's almost like an obsession to them, like they want to be so many different styles that they get them confused and ultimately make the style known as ....weirdo
anyway...it was more fun back when we were all stupid, at least for me it was
those definitely were the good ol days
anyway...dun pay attention to any of this, just a buncha ramblings, really nothing to take into consideration,
just kind of pissed, irritated, annoyed, worried, sad, discontent...BLEH
i want money outta this too