Hey, reader(s)!!! Dis iz ur loyal journal-keeper saying "HEY!!" biggrin LOL. The title is a bit confoobling but I will be a gud little dictionary blaugh and tell u wat t means. In my previous entry (if u haven't read it, do so now stressed ), I told u dat i wanna confess 2 da guy i like heart .
Well...an amiga of mine by da name of Kathx3 (she's so kool) told me I should. Along with another one of my good, Gaian friends, bootie (short 4...i 4got). Anyway...I'm gonna be absent on Wednesday. I have dis writing conference because I won dis contest. When I'm gone, she's gonna corner him and ask if he wud go out wit me if I asked...
WAT I'M HOPING (and praying) WILL GO DOWN:
Kathx3--"Hey!! How's Travis?"
Key2MyHeart (LOL)--"He's kool. Why?"
Kathx3--"No reason. I have a question."
Key2MyHeart--"Wat?"
Kathx3--"I think M****(<--dats me) likes u. Wud u go out wit her if she did?"
Key2MyHeart--
a. "No, I dunt like her like dat." (owwies...)
b. "I'm not sure." (watz dat supposed 2 mean?) stare
c. "Hell no!!" (boo-hoo)
d. "Yeah, but she'll probably say no..." (I'd say YES!!!) xd
e. "Hell yeah!! I'll call her." (*crosses fingers*) xd
Ah well!!! I dunt know anymore... Things r pretty shaky now. Plus, if he says yes and we do go out i'll have at least 10 lovesick girls ready to attack when I'm alone. eek Datz waaaay scary!!!
My bf will probably kill me, revive me, torture me and kill me again. sad I dunt want her 2 b mad at me. I thought she was over him. She used 2 tell dat she was over him and dat he was a jerk and stuff. I didn't know dat it was gonna b lke dis. I SWEAR!!
She told me a few weeks back. It was in the morning during PE. Kathx3, her and me were waiting 4 class 2 start. Then she told me dat she still liked him. Dat was like a sucker punch. I was soooo SHOCKED and scared and confused. I felt like I was the one who BETRAYED her.
She had liked hm for YEARS and I had liked him for A YEAR. I felt like I was closing in on her territory and I was gonna get it. Things cooled down from there. I'm still afraid that it will jeopardize our relationship. I know not 2 break off friendships over a guy.
I'm afraid of how she'll react. Whether she'll be angry at me or happy for me. Her opinion matters alot to me. If not for her, my life wouldn't be wat it is. I want to be happy but I want her 2 be happy 2... so I have 2 wait. And see wat will happen. Because for now, I'm utterly lost.
So wat r my options?
1] Drop the guy and be miserable 4 losing my chance but my friend will be happy.
2] Get the guy and be miserable for losing my best friend and confidant.
3] Have neither and be miserable until I finally go over the deep end and die as a suicidal crazy in the mental ward in a hospital closer to nowhere than nowhere is.
Not cheery options, r they? Number 3 sounds the least painless of the three though. *sigh*. Do I confess? Or do I shut my mouth? Do I get closer? Or fly away? Sum1 tell me wat 2 do!!!
I'm sooo confused. Sum1 tell me wat 2 do!!!
+++++++++++++THE GOOD
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the cheese to my macaroni Community Member 
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