Its the concept that almost every child blames themself for it happening. But in this family of mine it is because of the kids. My mother is always complaing about us and my dad. she has threatened to leave several times but she never actually has had the guts to do it yet. My brother and I are old enough to choose who we want to live with. But that puts a whole bunch of pressure on us because we are so use to having them together and dont know who to choose. and if we both choose the same parent then the other will feel as if they have failed in some way as a parent to us. Then I will fell bad and not know what to do. I wont be able to split the custody because they would be living over 3hrs of a drive away from each other.
My mother also told my father that her mother might come down here to live next to us. My father went bizarre and threatened to move and leave us if my grandmother lived here. It made me really upset too. Why would he leave over my grandma moving here.
Everyday of my life I feel like crying. I never now how to solve my broken heart from my family being totally torn. So i take it out with my anger. Then when im anger I never fell like doing work around the house. That results in my mother yelling and screaming. Which causes me to be more emotional and more angry. which continues to my destructive behavior and when I get really upset I eat which is not good at all.
As you can see I have many issues and I have no way of fixing it all by myself. I try to get help with my family. I try to spend time with my sister and try to get along with my brother. He calls me names and just this morning he hacked my Myspace and posted a bulletin saying that im emo and he told all my friends never to talk to me again. and my friends emailed me saying what the heck. they all thought it was me who wrote it and it took a lot of explaining to make them understand that my brother was being an asswhole.
My mother also told my father that her mother might come down here to live next to us. My father went bizarre and threatened to move and leave us if my grandmother lived here. It made me really upset too. Why would he leave over my grandma moving here.
Everyday of my life I feel like crying. I never now how to solve my broken heart from my family being totally torn. So i take it out with my anger. Then when im anger I never fell like doing work around the house. That results in my mother yelling and screaming. Which causes me to be more emotional and more angry. which continues to my destructive behavior and when I get really upset I eat which is not good at all.
As you can see I have many issues and I have no way of fixing it all by myself. I try to get help with my family. I try to spend time with my sister and try to get along with my brother. He calls me names and just this morning he hacked my Myspace and posted a bulletin saying that im emo and he told all my friends never to talk to me again. and my friends emailed me saying what the heck. they all thought it was me who wrote it and it took a lot of explaining to make them understand that my brother was being an asswhole.
