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My heart is torn
What used to keep it together
has withered
again I must choose
choose something difficult
knowing one part of me
will always hate my decision

How does it hurt
How does the pain make u cry
I lost my emotions
even death will not bring out tears
but when u r hurt
I am hurt
how can this happen
How r u
controlling me

Bring me a candle
So I may put out the other lights
so the only one
who will noe of my suicide
is me

Why do my legs shake
when we talk
why is it the only thing I can think of
I cannot write on
why must the only words
I dread most
is u saying
U hate me
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yes I had a very shitty day so right now I am whinig in poems
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Why are you here
Why are you hurting me
Why are you touching me
Why are you abusing me
Leave my arm at my side
Dont touch me there
Leave my heart in it's place
I can not permit this again
I cannot let u touch me again
I have to run
I have to leave this place and run
I scream and u smile
How can u b pleasured by my pain
My body aches from ur touch
please let me go
let me be free
But you say no
and continue
My body let's again
my heart is gone
my purity no longer exists
i am dead
the living dead