*sigh* I am really pissed off at her!!! Yesterday after I got off the phone with Steve she told me.....that I can never call him again. Hells no, b***h! She is seriously driving me crazy then she acts like everything is rosy and pretty. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! She can go to hell! I was having a great day and she had to go and ******** it up! I hate her and I wish I would die....just so she would see how much I don't care. *seriously pissed* I'd get pregnant on purpose just to fulfill her self prophesying a**. Not really Steve I wouldn't do that to you and ruin your life along with mine. But she is just so ******** stupid, she's a bigot and a ******** liar. I hate her and god if she would just leave me alone. My sister and I are finally getting along and she is sooo worried about it, cuz she's afraid Janae will turn out like me a stupid mothercracker. Janae is totally the opposite of me she has a lot more morals than I do and when I was her age I was never that innocent. She and I have had major problems and it was due to the divorce and me emotionally and her attitude at times. I just want to do what I want to do and if I end up far off the course that my mom has set for me that is my choice I have to live with it. I need a serious break from life right now. My mom asked me "Where has Jaycee gone?" I think she is hiding in the Green Willow Forest why I don't know but it is safer there.......Jaycee really hasn't been here for a long time...........several years in fact. I'm a little suicidal but don't have the guts to do the death thing........however I am all about the leaving and never coming back. *sigh* Why is the world deciding to crumble at my feet right now? Things were so good. Steve and I have been together for over a month now and I'm really enjoying being with him.....last night I was contemplating breaking up with him and how I would break his heart and practically kill my soul in the process...it hurt so bad to write down those words. I felt so alone and lost....I am soo confused right now about my religion and my parents and the future. Everything is set in motion now, though, so there is no way mom can stop me from the path that is already set. I miss you Steve and don't want to hurt you but my mom is the stupid one who always gets in my way of happiness. I love you Steve you make me feel so much better and so much more. I love you! Ich liebe dich! Puno pazdrava!
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