Do you ever feel like you have done your best but its never good enough for anyone. I hate this feeling, and you feel that no matter what everything goes wrong. sometimes I feel like a freak on a leash not being able to move on and do what I want to complete. I alway's wanted to know Why was I the one who couldnt get my diploma even though I spent all of my time and money finish up my senior project and trying to compete all of my credits. then I find out a month later that it was a waste of my time and effort. but one of my best friends who said that she didnt know how to do any type of math or reading passed it. She passed it and I didnt. I still rember the day I asked it was january 22, 2007 around 12:45 p.m I had put the channle on food network I called my ex-school and asked if I passed the test. The lady was looking on her computer and told me "sorry honey you didnt pass" I stopped breathing for a moment after I had hung up the phone. I couldnt belive it, the pain stabbed right through me like a knife had buried it self into my chest. I sat down on my brothers bed and tried to let the information soak through. I couldnt belive it. It felt surreal like if someone was ******** with me. all I could think of was why me why did this have to happen to me I wanted to give up right then and just go away. I called my best friend (the one who passed) she was sooo giddy on the phone telling me how she passed her test and how proud she was of herself. I hated her for that moment. Honest to god hate ran through my veins and heart.
EvaScarlett Community Member 
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