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Yes,
That's what some know it as;
S.A.D.
I hate Valentine's Day.
Hate it with a burning passion.
Sure,
It was alright.
I didn't care too much.
It didn't really bother me to see people getting gifts,
Roses,
Candy,
That sort of stuff.
What bothered me was that I had no one,
But that was usual,
Even not on this day.
I'd envy those who had someone,
Someone to kiss,
Someone to cry with,
Someone to hold.
And I had no one.
That's what realy bothered me.
But now I do have someone,
But he's far away.
I can't hold him,
Or kiss him,
Or anything.
And now...
Now today's gotten even worse.
I can't stand some of the things he does.
Not everything I say on here is totally serious.
I don't go around flirting,
I don't go telling strangers I love them,
I don't cheat!
Never!
Stop going and checking all my posts,
Stop following me around,
Stop posting certain things in threads I go to that make me feel bad!
Like the 'bullet though a heart' thing.
And don't say any bullshit that you were just posting there.
You knew I was there,
You knew I'd read it,
And I bet you knew that would hurt me!
But,
You know what?
I'm alright with that.
You can go on and post to your heart's content,
Try to make me feel horrible.
This always happens anyways,
And sooner or later all my emotions will disappear.
I won't cry anymore,
I won't smile,
I won't laugh,
And I won't love.
How does that sound?
No more love.
None for her and none for you.
Isn't that what you wanted?
Me not to feel for her?
I CAN'T ******** HELP IT!!!
I told you I can't control my emotions.
If I could,
Do you think there'd be any use to having a diary?
I'd just keep everything locked up and wouldn't have to let things out.
But,
No,
I can't keep them locked up.
I tried a few years back and I swear I could have gone insane.
So just stop!
Just let me be me and don't take every ******** thing I say to people I don't know seriously.
Stop checking all my posts,
Stop asking e stupid ******** questions about my feelings for her,
Stop asking things I don't know!
 Kiarrii · Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 12:29am · 1 Comments |
