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Just recently, I went over my first journal entries. And if you want to save yourself some misery, please don't go and read them. It was so illiterate, I wanted to puke! At least I spelled out most of my words...
So, how has everyone been? Good? Bad? Kinda in the middle? Sweet. Well, on with my thoughts!
Recently, I have been wondering about my social life. I keep wondering why my friends are all individuals, but need therapists...(no offense), but I guess not all of them do. Sometimes I think they are a little straight-minded. What I mean is, they don't like to be stereo-typed about being emo, or goth, or bi, or whatever. But then, they turn around and just do the same to another person. I stereo-type too, okay? It is not like no one does it. That is just how our society is. But to not like to be stereo-typed, and then turn around and do it to someone else...That is just being a hypocrite. So, that's what I think about that.
Also involving my social life, are my friends. I feel like I don't have anyone that likes me the best. Which bugs me. Let's say I have a group of friends that I enjoy being with. Well, let's say I feel left out. The only way that I feel my friend really likes me the best, is when the other friend isn't there. I feel as if I'm boring, and no one likes me the most. I know I sound like I'm whining, but basically, I have no best friend. And I want one so badly. I care about all my friends, but I have no person in this group of friends that I feel especially likes me. And that really sucks big time.
Well, I guess you don't want to read this just to hear me complain, so let's get onto a lighter topic.
I'm trying to get into a private school on a scholarship. I haven't really told anyone about it, except for my family, who talks often with me about it, and my teachers, who I needed to acquire recommendations from. But is this school for me? I may be good at math and scientific stuff, but I am more interested in the arts, of which I'm not the best of the best at. And the arts, for all the airheads, are everything not regualr school. That includes, singing, band, acting, dancing, drawing, painting, weaving, etc. But I guess I'm also interested in Creative Writing. So my real question is, do I really want to sacrifice my friends and family to go here? (I'm going to board there if I get the scholarship). It truly is a tough question. But I think I'm going to go for it. Yay!
I'm currently writing and coming up with new ideas for stories. For some reason, when (and if) I finish my first book, I want to send it to my friend who currently lives in Florida. And only her. I don't want anyone else to know about it. I don't know why I think this, but it's pretty weird if you ask me...
But I'm going to have a pen name, so it's not like you'll see my real name on the cover of books. And I'm not going to hand out my pen name. I think there is something wrong with me...(joke).
So yeah, those are my current confessions. I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm a whiny brat, it's just that I haven't told anyone else these things, and it's what I'm truly feeling.
I wonder if being a therapist could be fun...
Jobs I would like:
1. Writer
2. Actor
3. Therapist
4. Librarian
Go to the next journal entry to see my screenplay that I started...
Byez~
Meg
 Miss Toxica · Sun Feb 11, 2007 @ 03:03pm · 0 Comments |
