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the crap thing about paranoia is you don't know wether its the same for everybody else or not o.O
this is RIDICULOUS, i catch at least about 50 people staring at me each day.
POSSIBLE REASONS:
1. im a redhead
2. im as pasty pale as some creepy albino kid
3. their perverted
4. i dont dress top standard
5. im scary
6. i look stoned
7. im just unbelievably ugly
...id go with 7. it makes the most sense. if u ever see a pic of me, ull agree. i dont think i was ever stared at when i was a lil tyke...like up to age 7...i was just really modest and even back then refused to wear shorts in summer, and sometimes even wouldnt take off my jacket. and i still refuse to take iether one off when its swealtering hot. yeah, im modest. its not healthy at all, i know. but i HATE my body, and the way i look, and i dont like the idea of being stared at more. plus those ******** scars on my wrists are so noticeable.. emo
anyway, as i got older i just got more paranoid about people staring at me and completely shut myself out of any social life beyond my friends and family. well...as much as any kid can what with school always pushing you into activities...gets ******** annoying when you dont want to be around anyone.
the only ones i dont mind staring at me are my closest friends. im even touchy around my family. thats one of the main reasons i yell at my brother so much. "QUIT STARING AT ME YOU LOSER!!!" which is just BRILLIANT you know, i get it enough outside, i DONT need it from my BROTHER. am i that much of a freak??? i mean, sitting at the bus stop i notice truck drivers staring at me all the time (id probably notice car drivers too if their windows werent tinted...) and all i want to do is cover my face.
even my ******** MOTHER (whom i totally hate by the way). i should just tell her to shove it next time...come to think of it, i will.
well, ciao, im off to get executed after telling my "mother" to go get ********...
 FSlayerX · Fri Feb 02, 2007 @ 06:51am · 1 Comments |
