Screw the competition guessing thing.
Not like anyone is going to guess anyways...
I don't care.
And if anyone comes and guesses now,
Piss off.
It's over.
Done.
Finito.
I don't know what to do anymore,
How to feel,
What to say.
I feel horrible.
I feel as if this is because of me.
I know he'll say it's not,
That nothing's because of me,
But it is.
I can feel it.
I know it.
********.
Maybe it would have been better if I didn't say anything in the beginning.
********.
I need to talk to my sister.
And my brother too.
I don't know if either will be able to help,
But I miss them both.
After Kai left,
I cried.
I didn't want to around her.
I held it back.
Even when she was asleep.
I just couldn't cry.
I couldn't let her see the tears.
I acted like..
I can't describe it...
Like I was pissed,
And I was.
I still am,
A bit.
Everything's so ******** up.
Someone,
Tell me what to do.
I can't make a decision.
I don't want to.
I just can't.
For anyone who cares,
I'm posting a new picture of myself in my profile.
Enjoy.
"Solitude scares me. It makes me think about love, death, and war. I need distraction from anxious, black thoughts."
- ~Brigitte Bardot
