man...i got so pissed off with the computer just a few hours ago. it was freezing up like every second and everything. lol, reminded me of how pissy i got with my newest cousin, james (5 or 6 yrs old...) just this new years. he was trying to burn my brother matt with the sparkler, and had been ever since he first got the damn thing, so i grabbed him by the shoulder, turned him around and told him (more like yell) to quit it, and he burnt me on the fist i had him with. i was surprised at how terrified of me he was. he just stood there watching me walk around him with his finger in his mouth giving me the puppy dog eyes. tho i wasnt really that surprised at how id reacted to him...it was only a matter of time.
lol he didnt make any more attempts to burn anyone else after that. to be truthful, ever since he met me i think hes been a bit afraid of me. every time he pulls some smartass move like flashing the camera in my face (like he did to everyone at the wedding...) i can see fear written all over him. it isnt obvious of course. i can just feel it. hes afraid of me hurting him like i did when he burnt me. i think it was the way i walked around him like a tiger fuming and glaring at him trying to wash the soot out of my burn as quick as possible by licking it that really got to him, because he watched me as if he was afraid id do it again.
i do try to keep my temper to a minimum around him. or anywhere for that matter. but its when he does things that would cause serious damage, burns for example, and no-one else is around to make him stop that i lose it. his mum had already tried to make him cut it out, and he was still doing it. his dad tried to make him cut it out too, but it still didnt work. it turned out that me blowing a gasket at him worked best lol.
well at least now he knows not to mess with me, even if it is only deep down. he knows that he can do these small things like flash that camera in my face, but hes still wary.
i know he does try to be nicer to me sometimes, like passing me his kitten for a cuddle every now and then. but its just the way he acts towards my brother that gets to me. i know i pick on my bro like all the time, but i wont take it when anybody else does. even mum. at the wedding he was chasing my brother (matt) around with a stick. and matt never does anything but ask him to stop it because he doesnt want to hurt him (i know. hes better than me at handling his temper). all i wanted to do was grab the back of his jacket and ask him to quit it. i wasnt temper driven that day. i knew how much it meant to allison (the bride aka: james's mother).
well, got pm's to reply to. ciao!
 FSlayerX · Tue Jan 16, 2007 @ 04:02am · 0 Comments |
