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Alright, well.... Lately over the past few days it just seems like my life is going to hell. when I started to think about my step grandpa who died back in 2002 and my great uncle who died just last year from cancer. And I'm really sick of guys sayin' things they don't mean. Yet, a lot of my guy friends always ask why I don't trust that many guys. Well... Back last year I went out with this guy that I met over the internet and two others after that. They made me really distrust guys, added to what my dad did when I was little. For those of you that don't know... When I was little my mom and dad did live together for a few years. And all I would listen to every night was their yelling and I would hear my mom crying in their bed room. My dad was like always gone. And he left when I was a few years old. Really he is the only man I can truely say I'm fearful of and that I hate. Last time I saw him was in 2004 when I got out of the hospitil. And he clains me being 'pissed off' at him is just me being stuborn. Now there are two reasons I hate him. For the way he treated my mom, younger sister and I and for what he had said when my grandma and mom had told him that Jack had died. Now, my dad was never around me when I was growing up for the most part after he left. And Jack was like a father to me. My dad just laughed and was smiling when he found out he was dead and tried to say 'I'm sorry for your loss.' Without smiling. And, yes, I know hate is a srong word and he is my dad but oh well. I'm still proud of where I come from. Always have and always will be. Well, if you read this thank you. Talk to y'all later.